Today, I learned there is a huge revelation of blessing "in the waiting" if... there is waiting, and not..... "fixing"
Today, I learned that truly loving the Lord my God with all my heart with all my mind and all my soul means there will be none of ME left..........
Today, I learned that no matter what the circumstances I am coming away from.... my very first thought. statement or reaction should be: "Lord reveal to me first my pride, then maybe I can...
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Monday, February 21, 2011
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Thank you
Dear Father,
I wanted to make it clear to you how very grateful I am to you not only for giving me the desire of my heart, but for revealing yourself to me in such a way that I will never be the same. Your presences has multiplied, while waiting. This, to me was a secret part of you that I had never experienced before. I would not trade this time with you for anything. I just wanted you to know, how humbled I feel and privileged I am to have spent such a blessed, intense, often scary time with you. I just need you to know how thankful I am for the presences of your Holy Spirit, thank you Father, for giving Lilly good health and you Lord, this whole thing has been about you and you are awesome. I praise you Father..................it has been all about you and I found you to faithful from beginning to now. I have been blessed
In the sweet name of Jesus Amen
Good night,
Honey
Too tired to edit:)
I wanted to make it clear to you how very grateful I am to you not only for giving me the desire of my heart, but for revealing yourself to me in such a way that I will never be the same. Your presences has multiplied, while waiting. This, to me was a secret part of you that I had never experienced before. I would not trade this time with you for anything. I just wanted you to know, how humbled I feel and privileged I am to have spent such a blessed, intense, often scary time with you. I just need you to know how thankful I am for the presences of your Holy Spirit, thank you Father, for giving Lilly good health and you Lord, this whole thing has been about you and you are awesome. I praise you Father..................it has been all about you and I found you to faithful from beginning to now. I have been blessed
In the sweet name of Jesus Amen
Good night,
Honey
Too tired to edit:)
Monday, February 14, 2011
Now I believe......
I can remember when my children were young, and I needed to scream at all the chaos. Everyone would try to talk at the same time and there were always strange little things floating around in my diet coke and I had not put there! Often whenever I would voice my struggles there would be a more mature, wiser women around that would over hear my grievances and they would often offer the same advice. "Enjoy them while their young because when their older it just multiplies." I can remember thinking what multiplies? I would say to my self , " whatever she just does not understand
how crazy getting everyone to school with all their homework and lunches, all the clothes I have to wash and what about the arguing and car pooling. Not to mention cleaning the house and all the stuff I keep digging out from under their beds. She just doesn't understand what its like for me.
Over night, (a least it seemed like that) my children were grown. I still wonder how in the world did this happen so fast, where did the time go. A couple of years after Lara graduated from high school I had a friend say to me as her daughter was graduating...
"Tinna why didn't you tell me I would feel like this?"
I simply said to her "because you would not have believed me!"
Her reply: "your probably right, I wouldn't have."
Then much further down the road in the adventure of motherhood comes more children, our grand children. Can I tell you there is nothing like it in this whole wide world like becoming a grandmother. Maybe its because I'm not the one who has to be responsible for their raising. I can give them coke and a sucker just before bed time, and its all on my watch. (By the way I won't do that again; they were spending the night with me this weekend and I thought they would never settle down. (My bad ;).....I just laughed and enjoyed their wide eyed excitement.
The one thing I have discovered as a "Honey" (that's my grandma name) is that when my heart aches now, it aches for every member in their family. Not just my child but all of my family; that is what the "wise, more experienced women" were try to tell me, but I didn't believe them.
But Isn't it sweet of the Lord to not let us have everything all at once, trust me we couldn't take it. He allows a little bit of life to happen to us so we can see that we will survive, and to prove himself faithful.......through,
Child birth
child rearing
teenagers
graduation
leaving for college
marriage
in laws
grandchildren
And all he has for us there after. By this time in my life as a grandmother I have lots of history with Lord, I have watched him show himself faithful so many times. And just let me shout this from the roof top it was not because I had some incredible mind boggling faith, because I must tell the truth I did not have that. I have been scared plum out of my P.J's with "LIFE" happenings within mine, and my families lives. But This is what I have found to be true, no this is What I Know to be true about Jesus is that every time, and I do mean EVERY TIME "A LIFE" experience happened and after the storm settles down, "WE" have seen and experienced Jesus in more ways than we experienced " THIS LIFE" happening situation!. I don't know if this makes sense to you, it will one day. Life is what happens while were making other plans. Trust me you will meet Jesus in your "LIFE" experiences and he is prepared for you and he knew you were coming and he knew you were not going to be able to "believe this" without his help!" He knows the plans he has for us, I promise and he is in this storm. I can already hear the sound of his "True, pure, right, admirable, lovely, excellent, and praise worthy voice. The sound is familiar and a peace rushes over me as I am reminded of his presences and his faithfulness, the strength in his tone, as always, is beginning to take my every thought captive to Jesus Christ,.......And this I do believe!
I do believe....
Tinna
Too tired to edit:)
how crazy getting everyone to school with all their homework and lunches, all the clothes I have to wash and what about the arguing and car pooling. Not to mention cleaning the house and all the stuff I keep digging out from under their beds. She just doesn't understand what its like for me.
Over night, (a least it seemed like that) my children were grown. I still wonder how in the world did this happen so fast, where did the time go. A couple of years after Lara graduated from high school I had a friend say to me as her daughter was graduating...
"Tinna why didn't you tell me I would feel like this?"
I simply said to her "because you would not have believed me!"
Her reply: "your probably right, I wouldn't have."
Then much further down the road in the adventure of motherhood comes more children, our grand children. Can I tell you there is nothing like it in this whole wide world like becoming a grandmother. Maybe its because I'm not the one who has to be responsible for their raising. I can give them coke and a sucker just before bed time, and its all on my watch. (By the way I won't do that again; they were spending the night with me this weekend and I thought they would never settle down. (My bad ;).....I just laughed and enjoyed their wide eyed excitement.
The one thing I have discovered as a "Honey" (that's my grandma name) is that when my heart aches now, it aches for every member in their family. Not just my child but all of my family; that is what the "wise, more experienced women" were try to tell me, but I didn't believe them.
But Isn't it sweet of the Lord to not let us have everything all at once, trust me we couldn't take it. He allows a little bit of life to happen to us so we can see that we will survive, and to prove himself faithful.......through,
Child birth
child rearing
teenagers
graduation
leaving for college
marriage
in laws
grandchildren
And all he has for us there after. By this time in my life as a grandmother I have lots of history with Lord, I have watched him show himself faithful so many times. And just let me shout this from the roof top it was not because I had some incredible mind boggling faith, because I must tell the truth I did not have that. I have been scared plum out of my P.J's with "LIFE" happenings within mine, and my families lives. But This is what I have found to be true, no this is What I Know to be true about Jesus is that every time, and I do mean EVERY TIME "A LIFE" experience happened and after the storm settles down, "WE" have seen and experienced Jesus in more ways than we experienced " THIS LIFE" happening situation!. I don't know if this makes sense to you, it will one day. Life is what happens while were making other plans. Trust me you will meet Jesus in your "LIFE" experiences and he is prepared for you and he knew you were coming and he knew you were not going to be able to "believe this" without his help!" He knows the plans he has for us, I promise and he is in this storm. I can already hear the sound of his "True, pure, right, admirable, lovely, excellent, and praise worthy voice. The sound is familiar and a peace rushes over me as I am reminded of his presences and his faithfulness, the strength in his tone, as always, is beginning to take my every thought captive to Jesus Christ,.......And this I do believe!
I do believe....
Tinna
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What I learned today...
Today I learned that Phillipians 4:7, "The peace of God that transcends all understanding" is true and comes in at the speed of LIGHT1
Today, I learned that there is never a more personal and super natural time with Jesus than when I am having to waiting with Him!
Today, I learned that the biggest idol I have in my life is myself!
Today, I learned that taking my thoughts captive (2 croth. 10:5) means that my mind is filled with God's words. Not thoughts of me trying to get control of my thoughts.
Today, I learned "That I can always, absolutely trust the character of God, but I can never absolutely understand his ways.
Too tired to edit:)
Today, I learned that there is never a more personal and super natural time with Jesus than when I am having to waiting with Him!
Today, I learned that the biggest idol I have in my life is myself!
Today, I learned that taking my thoughts captive (2 croth. 10:5) means that my mind is filled with God's words. Not thoughts of me trying to get control of my thoughts.
Today, I learned "That I can always, absolutely trust the character of God, but I can never absolutely understand his ways.
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Thursday, February 10, 2011
The Patriarchs
I was never really interested in history when I was in school. Why would I care about what other people did such a long time ago? What could this possibly have to do with my life anyway! Oh my goodness was I ever wrong. I would give any thing if I had payed attention to people, to their culture, and what was going on in the government and asked question like what made them make the choices that they did.
In our study of the Patriarchs tonight we got the chance to travel back in time and walk through some of the most foundational truths about God's plan for his chosen people. We will be learning that there is but one God who has many names, such as Elyhoim, Universal creator or LORD, which in Hebrew is YHWH ( yes this is correct, no vowels) meaning covenant keeper. Learning what the names of God mean will help us better understand how vast his promises are and by the honor of his own name he bring them to his people.
This will be an exciting and ancient journey that is timless, a history lesson that will teach us where our Spiritual heritage began. I hope you come along for the ride, I will keep our travels posted.
Tinna
In our study of the Patriarchs tonight we got the chance to travel back in time and walk through some of the most foundational truths about God's plan for his chosen people. We will be learning that there is but one God who has many names, such as Elyhoim, Universal creator or LORD, which in Hebrew is YHWH ( yes this is correct, no vowels) meaning covenant keeper. Learning what the names of God mean will help us better understand how vast his promises are and by the honor of his own name he bring them to his people.
This will be an exciting and ancient journey that is timless, a history lesson that will teach us where our Spiritual heritage began. I hope you come along for the ride, I will keep our travels posted.
Tinna
Spring Bible Studies
Tonight Feb. 10, we are beginning the Study of the Patriarch's by Beth Moore. It is the History of God's plan for his chosen people, called the "Hebrews at that time and the family God chose to bring his plan into play, Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. It begins at 6:30 p.m. at Becky MacDonald's house call if you need directions..
On Wed, February the 16 at 9:00 a.m. at the church we will begin "The Titus 2 women" It is from 9-11 and child care is provided. This is a Bible study that covers all aspects of a woman's life from personal, Spiritual and her family This study has been translated into 4 different languages and is taken all over the world to help teach women, how to teach other women about who God is in our lives and how we can be all God has called us to be so we are prepared at any time to give an account for the hope that is in us.
So EXCITED to be with my Bible study girlfriends again.....
Yipeeee, Tinna
On Wed, February the 16 at 9:00 a.m. at the church we will begin "The Titus 2 women" It is from 9-11 and child care is provided. This is a Bible study that covers all aspects of a woman's life from personal, Spiritual and her family This study has been translated into 4 different languages and is taken all over the world to help teach women, how to teach other women about who God is in our lives and how we can be all God has called us to be so we are prepared at any time to give an account for the hope that is in us.
So EXCITED to be with my Bible study girlfriends again.....
Yipeeee, Tinna
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
What I learned today...
What I learned today....
I learned, just because you think someone should be broken hearted, doesn't mean they are.....
I learned, that when I wonder if God is nudging me to strike up a conversation with the lady sitting close to me and our eyes keep meeting, that yes that was God's nudging.....
I learned, that when others handle things differently than I would, that they are not wrong, just different...
I learned today, to enjoy the difference of God's people, that judgement that comes quickly shouts of insecurity..........
I learned today, that the Glory of God shows up in places that I would never dream of.........
Remembering always what Jesus promised me: Tinna:"I will never leave you or forsake you. Hebrews 13:5 I love you all,Tinna
I learned, just because you think someone should be broken hearted, doesn't mean they are.....
I learned, that when I wonder if God is nudging me to strike up a conversation with the lady sitting close to me and our eyes keep meeting, that yes that was God's nudging.....
I learned, that when others handle things differently than I would, that they are not wrong, just different...
I learned today, to enjoy the difference of God's people, that judgement that comes quickly shouts of insecurity..........
I learned today, that the Glory of God shows up in places that I would never dream of.........
Remembering always what Jesus promised me: Tinna:"I will never leave you or forsake you. Hebrews 13:5 I love you all,Tinna
While we wait
Lara, Jarod and Lilly just walked away and through a door that may change their lives forever. As I sit here in the waiting room with all these families waiting right along with me with their sick children, it occurs to me what a bubble I live in. These are families just like mine, worried and eating potatoes chips, walking around with beautiful faces a bald head devouring a chocolate chip cookies. They are in wheel chairs wrapped up in blankets drinking Big Red and arguing with their mothers. Cartoons play loudly helping to muffle everyones thoughts as one more of Gods little children check in with colorful bandaids, no hair, as a big ole smile shines through when they see their favorite nurses come out for them. Interesting, the world of cancer I wonder as I sit and watch, what events placed the desire in these Drs. lives that made them want to devote the rest of their lives helping sick children. Looks like to me it could only be a calling from the Almighty, weather they know it or not.
My prayer here in this place, for these people is this, that You, Father would make yourself known to these families in such a way that their whole families would recognize your presences, as you surely have for mine. That we would change from a people who only cries out to you when were in trouble or scared, into a people who live every minute in truth, the truth that you are in control of all things and we are not. Accept that our lives will change at any moment. Help us Lord to understand you are the only constant or stable thing in anyones life, that you are the final and ultimate Physician. Strengthen us, enable us to walk with joy when we realize we never had control in the first place. Without you Jesus we don't have our next breath, much less the courage to care for our families. Thank you for the blessing of these smiling, sticky faced children. Thank you for creating the heart of a parent, only YOU could design something so amazing. Thank you for showing yourself, through a broken and sinful people who are trying to love and take care of one another. Only you, can make a children's cancer waiting room glow with your peaceful GLORY. Only, the one true God could have done this while we wait...
He is my favorite,
Tinna
Remembering always what Jesus promised me: Tinna:"I will never leave you or forsake you. Hebrews 13:5 I love you all,Tinna
My prayer here in this place, for these people is this, that You, Father would make yourself known to these families in such a way that their whole families would recognize your presences, as you surely have for mine. That we would change from a people who only cries out to you when were in trouble or scared, into a people who live every minute in truth, the truth that you are in control of all things and we are not. Accept that our lives will change at any moment. Help us Lord to understand you are the only constant or stable thing in anyones life, that you are the final and ultimate Physician. Strengthen us, enable us to walk with joy when we realize we never had control in the first place. Without you Jesus we don't have our next breath, much less the courage to care for our families. Thank you for the blessing of these smiling, sticky faced children. Thank you for creating the heart of a parent, only YOU could design something so amazing. Thank you for showing yourself, through a broken and sinful people who are trying to love and take care of one another. Only you, can make a children's cancer waiting room glow with your peaceful GLORY. Only, the one true God could have done this while we wait...
He is my favorite,
Tinna
Remembering always what Jesus promised me: Tinna:"I will never leave you or forsake you. Hebrews 13:5 I love you all,Tinna
Monday, February 7, 2011
Lilly
Its getting late and I need to get up early in the morning. I have been reading through the book of Job and it has been so interesting how the Lord has one set of his divine words set aside to speak directly to us just at the right time. I will have to leave that great experience for another time. But the one thing I have been learning from Job and his friends is that we really have no idea what we are talking about when we try to figure out God and what he is doing. His ways are not our ways. Tomorrow Lilly goes to her first Oncology appointment, so all I have to say is just like Job we don't really know what God is doing. But I do know this one thing he stretched his out to me and my family and not a single one of us deserved it. God has not changed, but we sure have this week, we are looking for him in every breath we take. He created Lilly and knit her together in her inner most being and no matter the out come tomorrow, with out Jesus we have nothing. Lord help us through this night and tomorrow to trust you with Lilly Tin.
Im to tired to edit, thank you for your prayers
Jesus name above all names, even cancer
Honey
p.s. our family song through this is "I will lift my hands" by Chris Tomlin
Remembering always what Jesus promised me: Tinna:"I will never leave you or forsake you. Hebrews 13:5 I love you all,Tinna
Im to tired to edit, thank you for your prayers
Jesus name above all names, even cancer
Honey
p.s. our family song through this is "I will lift my hands" by Chris Tomlin
Remembering always what Jesus promised me: Tinna:"I will never leave you or forsake you. Hebrews 13:5 I love you all,Tinna
When your children become your teahers..
For God so loved the world that he gave his only son and who so ever believes in him shall not perish but have everlasting life. John 3:16
It is amazing how fun and out of our control relationships with our children can be. They grow up and start trying to figure things out on their own and lessons we intended for them to bury deep in their hearts, often, at least for a time, seem like they bounced off and got lost some where in that pile of clothes in their room where their shoes, homework, or glasses with soured milk in them or their stinky socks laid and you were that nothing could have ever survived in that room. They believe there is a world out there that we just don't understand and they are going to prove.........something to us by discovering this new world. I remember when Lara was in middle school and she had gone to the mall with a friend and she came and said "Mom they have the coolest new fabric now, its in all the stores, I said really what is it? She said it's called double knit and it trenches!) New I thought to my self... So here they go out into this " brand new world" and what do they discover, the same world that we found. A world that never satisfies us but we were so sure that it would, they discover the stress and responsibility money and things produce. They can now identify and understand the meaning of buyers remorse. They hear themselves make the same comments that they swore they would never say when they were parents. They see that finding a mate is so much more than looks, a fast car, or a perfect body. That children come at a price and the cost is our hearts we had no idea that those little bundles of joy could open a place in our hearts that would create thoughts of giving our own lives for them. We can become so intense with emotion and protection in their behalf we often won't see the truth of what is happening in their lives because our love, as pure as we believe it to be is nothing compared to the pure and selfless love of our one true God
Then the day comes and our children are raising their children, our grandchildren, and they look at us and say, "Oh Mom I am so sorry for the way I acted when I was a kid" And we look into their eyes, and suddenly recognize that the same love we had as their parents is reflecting in their eyes. This is a love that didn't come on to either of us on our own, it came from the reaching hand of a loving Father. A love that could only exist because it was created by something holy and pure and knows no bounds at what his love can do in our lives. It really wasn't us loving our kids, it was Jesus showing us a part of who is and how he truly loves us. A sacrificial never ending love that we received when those little ones were placed in our hands is just a small reflection of how much God has always loved us. That over whelming feeling of "I would die for this child if I had to" begins to take on its true meaning, a whole new meaning which is that our Father did send his son, the one and only son to die for us and in his mercy he allows us to experience just a smidge, just a tiny particle of his love for us. I guess what I am trying to say is that if we all will really look at our parents, grandparents, our children or our grandchildren we will see the love that Jesus chose by laying his life down for us, Jesus is in their for us some where, try looking for him instead of at all of them.... the power of his love is miraculously healing! I know this one, I have experienced it myself.
Remembering always what Jesus promised me: Tinna:"I will never leave you or forsake you. Hebrews 13:5 I love you all,Tinna
It is amazing how fun and out of our control relationships with our children can be. They grow up and start trying to figure things out on their own and lessons we intended for them to bury deep in their hearts, often, at least for a time, seem like they bounced off and got lost some where in that pile of clothes in their room where their shoes, homework, or glasses with soured milk in them or their stinky socks laid and you were that nothing could have ever survived in that room. They believe there is a world out there that we just don't understand and they are going to prove.........something to us by discovering this new world. I remember when Lara was in middle school and she had gone to the mall with a friend and she came and said "Mom they have the coolest new fabric now, its in all the stores, I said really what is it? She said it's called double knit and it trenches!) New I thought to my self... So here they go out into this " brand new world" and what do they discover, the same world that we found. A world that never satisfies us but we were so sure that it would, they discover the stress and responsibility money and things produce. They can now identify and understand the meaning of buyers remorse. They hear themselves make the same comments that they swore they would never say when they were parents. They see that finding a mate is so much more than looks, a fast car, or a perfect body. That children come at a price and the cost is our hearts we had no idea that those little bundles of joy could open a place in our hearts that would create thoughts of giving our own lives for them. We can become so intense with emotion and protection in their behalf we often won't see the truth of what is happening in their lives because our love, as pure as we believe it to be is nothing compared to the pure and selfless love of our one true God
Then the day comes and our children are raising their children, our grandchildren, and they look at us and say, "Oh Mom I am so sorry for the way I acted when I was a kid" And we look into their eyes, and suddenly recognize that the same love we had as their parents is reflecting in their eyes. This is a love that didn't come on to either of us on our own, it came from the reaching hand of a loving Father. A love that could only exist because it was created by something holy and pure and knows no bounds at what his love can do in our lives. It really wasn't us loving our kids, it was Jesus showing us a part of who is and how he truly loves us. A sacrificial never ending love that we received when those little ones were placed in our hands is just a small reflection of how much God has always loved us. That over whelming feeling of "I would die for this child if I had to" begins to take on its true meaning, a whole new meaning which is that our Father did send his son, the one and only son to die for us and in his mercy he allows us to experience just a smidge, just a tiny particle of his love for us. I guess what I am trying to say is that if we all will really look at our parents, grandparents, our children or our grandchildren we will see the love that Jesus chose by laying his life down for us, Jesus is in their for us some where, try looking for him instead of at all of them.... the power of his love is miraculously healing! I know this one, I have experienced it myself.
Remembering always what Jesus promised me: Tinna:"I will never leave you or forsake you. Hebrews 13:5 I love you all,Tinna
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